All that is going on

And that's you.
Lovely and caring and broken.
Your waters are far too deep
I'm am far too distant.
There are lights, blue highlights in your eyes so warming and tempting I can't breath sometimes.
You tight me up embracing but you keep a safe and respectful distance.
You say things that make me fly while, at the same time, you're holding me to the ground.
I swing and swing.

I see darkness in your eyes too.
The kind of clouds made not too long ago and the kind which are as old as yourself.
I'm not the hard one. You say you are afraid of hurting, but isn't the fear of being hurt even bigger?
You have no north, I give you that, you really don't.
Your mind seems like a hurricane. Your peace is long gone.
And I feel like a little girl trying to catch a bag floating on the air.

Although I'm not sure weather I am deeply in love, delusional or needy.
Eveything feels right when we touch, even if sometimes you are not there at all.
We laugh. We stay in silence. We share.

I know that's all you have to offer.
I am not even sure there will be something else whatsoever.
And that's ok. I'll probably, in some point, find something else somewhere else.
But for now... you are the one I am thinking while closing my eyes to sleep.

And that's all it is going on.

Sexo Ruim

Há sempre o outro, espelho de mim.
Há sempre a fuga, o sexo e o orgasmo.
E quando nem isso, não há nada.

De todas as pessoas que se deitaram nos lençóis,
é daquelas que nunca nem tocaram a minha pele
as que tenho mais necessidade.

As vezes aquilo entre quatro paredes é tão vulgar que me assusta.
Me faço forte, sedutora e quando não há mais como fugir,
quando estou mais vulnerável que me desespero.

Quando já existem mãos me tocando
um desconforto absurdo me invade.

"é uma merda transar com gente sem jeito..."

Bond Girl

There is some kind of shell warped in layer and layers of subjectivity around you. This always  gave you such a delicate glow, pretty much like the early lights of some cold autumn morning, yellow and warm.
But I see some simple things too, some kind of absurd funny laughs, this way you have to make me feel comfortable. Things always start this conceptual with me.
Because you always make sure I know how vulnerable you are, I hold myself. But that was always the impression I had. Always the things you made me feel.
Still very superficial? Yes. But I can't deny I have some glimpses of the things underneath... and I like what I see.

Schatz

You promised me the nights we are never apart, and gave me the smiles of hope I missed a long time. When you take my hand and lead me to your embrace, when you lock me in your arms and kiss me, you take me away.

You win me over. I am yours.
And I am yours for a life time.
You are my family. You are my future.

Empty Spaces

There are empty spaces between my fingers. No other space is emptier than this ones. The fingers that should be there where holding me from flying around so happy I was. When this hands and caressing fingers where embracing the smallness of my hands everything was right. Heart beats where sync, the curves matched, smiles and sights saying so much with so little. When this spaces where filled… I was complete.

Fehlen

There is no gap between our souls.
Although the fingers can not touch yet.
There is no space we did not cover.
Even the most painful ones.
I see nothing we can not really do,
even we can not do it now, or even then...

He tells me he felt like I have opened a door
that shows him a new world he has never dreamed ,
I thought I had seen this world before, but the truth is:
I was too arrogant and afraid to admit I've never been there too.
There is something of naive and mature in us,
we are kids and adults, crying and laughing.

In my head I touched him a million times,
we had sex, we had dinners, we had a house,
an apartment,  kids and wrinkles.
In my heart we are yet to be, even though we are.
In my life he is there and is not going anywhere.
It's starting and changing and I feel like everyday,
until now, was there only to prepare myself for him.

We woke up, in the cold and in the heat, together,
and we stand up, holding our souls,
thinking every step is another step closer to each other.
We know.. it's worth the pain, the sadness, the longing..
We are sure of us.

Ich liebe dich, mein Schatz.

Golden

"You met me at a very strange time of my life"

Words are meaningless when it comes to explain,

There was directions I didn't think I could change.

And suddenly anything else made sense.

You happened. In that instant... I knew.